I'm exhausted...
To: Law
Why you gotta be so interesting?!
From: Annoyed intrigued student.
Sitting in my room getting lost in songs... It's a good day.
I wanna be more happy but I can't, I can't...
Maybe it's these songs...
I guess I was so caught up on worrying about the other person's feelings,
I forgot about my own.
And now I'm the one that's hurting.
Hmmm, there's a dilemma here.
Could this be home if there is no warmth in this place?
It's not home just because I live here right?
Isn't home where you will always find love and your family's warmth?
This is just a house.
A building structure that shelters me.
Feeds me, protects me, gives me the basic necessities.
But does not comfort me, bless me, or love me.
It's just an empty house.
Ps. i miss my favourite man, sunbae and indo...
the house has been quite cold these few nites.. please come warm it up =]
Had two great nights thanks to being able to drive.
Staying up till 1.30am in the car with Mona and Chenny my two very special friends.
Sharing, laughing, getting scared, confessing and reminiscing.
Getting lost on the way to steamboat, meeting new friends, and having fun playing games.
It gets a little quite round the house when it's just me at home.
It's quite lonely when my brother's not here. I hate it.
Silence becomes deafening. Cliche; but true.
Maybe that's why I always rely on my friends, rely on facebook, msn, you.
I miss home, my family, my sister.
I miss times in your car. Singing along to the radio. Changing the gear for you.
Getting you to drive safely. Distracting you.
But maybe I won't think about all of that if I stay busy day and night.
Concentrate on my work. Watch korean drama. Sleep. Drink bubble tea.
Do whatever I can so I don't have time to think about the silence.
I miss the old days, where it was just us against the world.
We'd sit around talking for hours without a care in the world except for bloody assignments.
We used to make crazy videos and laugh out really loud.
We'd dance around the house with the music on full volume just cause we can.
Making cupcakes and camwhoring was our specialty.
We'd talk about the "others" and complain what was wrong with them.
I miss the old days, cause now it just ain't the same anymore.
It's as if we're not really friends anymore. Although we are, it's not like the old days.
There are "others", maybe I'm just jealous, or maybe I'm just lonely.
But the feeling hurts. To be left behind and not being able to move on.
Maybe I just can't let go. Maybe it's just me.
You know too much.
Okay basically I've found a new toy which is tumblr. So currently intrigued with it cause it can make my blog look so pretty! So yeah but a downside is I can't have chatlogs on the side. =[
So cacat. Oh well I'll have a go at it for a few weeks and decide if I'm going to officially move there.
But of course I'll still use this blog! Like the title says "it knows too much" hehehe.
So many memories that I will keep looking back on!
